Monthly Archives: December 2021

Two Souls: Into the Fire # 247

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Two Souls: Into the Fire # 247

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After Steve had made his phone call to Kinsey, he went back to Linda’s motel room. Seeing that she and the kids were already asleep, he lay across the smaller bed, and shut his eyes…willing himself to go to sleep. He needed to forget what the day had been like, so far, but the images kept coming, over and over, like flashes from a scary movie. The drone of the air-conditioner finally lulled him into a fitful sleep. For awhile, all was quiet.

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Stevie and Mandy were giggling and playing some game with their toys, and Linda kept shushing them, but it woke Steve up, anyway. Cracking his eyes open, he said, “It’s okay…I’m awake.”

“Sorry, I tried to keep them quiet, Steve,” Linda said.

He lay there a few more minutes. Something was nagging at him; he tried to remember what it was. Then, he did recall a dream he’d just had, or at least parts of it. He’d heard tiny leprechaun voices all around him. They were saying they would grant him a wish, if he could find the pot of gold. He tried and tried…his wish was that Ghost would be okay, but he couldn’t find it. He woke up to the little voices of Stevie and Mandy.

“I couldn’t find it,” he mumbled to himself.

“What?” Linda asked. “You couldn’t find what?”

Looking over at her, he said, “The pot of gold…so I didn’t get my wish.” He saw that she didn’t get it. “Oh, it was nothing…just a dream I had.”

“It sounds strange,” Linda said.

Nodding, Steve said, “Umm-hmm, but I wanted to find it so bad. He got up to go wash his face, and try to wake all the way up. Looking at his watch he saw that it was almost five-thirty.

“Hey, Linda, I’m hungry. Let’s go eat, then it’ll be time to go to the hospital.”

“Good idea,” she said. “Let me get these kids into some fresh clothes, then let’s go.”

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Driving through the town, they found a restaurant that wasn’t too fancy, so they went in. They ordered their food, and talked while they ate.

“I want you to go in to see Ghost with me, Linda,” Steve said. “I don’t care what they say, we’re all family.”

“Yes, we are, and I will go in, but don’t you want to go in first? I mean, they way things were left, I think maybe y’all should talk alone for a few minutes,” Linda said. “And, really I can’t leave the kids alone.”

“Oh, yeah, you’re right. I’m just nervous. What do I say? Or do I just pretend it didn’t happen…what he said? Maybe he don’t even remember it, either…I hope so.”

“I know, me too,” Linda said. “Just go in normal…don’t say anything about it. This is so awkward for you, Steve…and me, too. You and Ghost have gone through so much, but this here…this weird feeling of how to be with each other….” she said, sighing and shaking her head. “Well, it has to work out. However it does, we still all have to get home to Missing Mile together. It has to get resolved somehow.”

“Yeah, I know,” Steve said. He looked at the time. “So let’s do this…ya ready to go?”

“Yes, come on kids, time to go,” she said, gathering up their things, as Steve paid the bill.

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“Where we going, Mommy,” Stevie asked.

“Honey, we’re going to the hospital again, to see Ghost.”

“Can he come home now?”

“That’s what we’re going to find out. We hope so. You and Mandy need to bring in a toy or coloring book to keep you busy for a little while.”

They looked through their things, picking out what they wanted to bring in with them. Linda pulled up in the parking lot, and they all went inside.

“You go up there first, Steve.” She gave him a hug. She didn’t say any more, but he knew she was hoping it would be okay with Ghost. She settled the kids, and then sat and stared at the TV that was bolted to the wall, not knowing or caring what was on.

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Steve went up the elevator to the floor Ghost was on, then walked slowly to his room. The door was closed. Trembling all over, and his heart pounding, he pushed open the door. Tears stung his eyes, as he looked at Ghost. He was awake, looking up at the TV.

He had more color in his cheeks this evening, and the cuts to his face had been treated, and the stitches he’d gotten were covered, but he looked so alone and vulnerable in that hospital bed, wearing the flimsy, cotton gown. As Steve walked in, Ghost turned to see him.

The moment Steve was worried about, was now.

“Steve…” Ghost whispered. He smiled his crooked grin, and held out his arms to Steve, who rushed over to the bed.

“Ghost, Ghost,” he cried, as he fell into Ghost’s embrace. They hugged each other tight, not wanting to let go. Then they kissed…so familiar, yet so new at the same time. “Oh, Ghost, I was so worried about you,” Steve said. “I’m still afraid …of what…” he started saying, but Ghost stopped him.

“I know, Steve. I’m sorry…I didn’t mean it. I was just in such a bad place…I was hating myself, not you, and I know you could never hate me. Can you just forget it…like it never happened? I been so worried, too. So worried that you’d never come back for me,” he said, choking back a sob.

“Oh, Babe, I’d never, ever leave you…not here, not anywhere,” Steve said.

“This day has been so long, Steve. I feel better, but so sad I made you leave.”

“I know…it’s been the same for me, too,” Steve said. They were quiet for a minute, just staring into each other’s eyes. Then Ghost looked down.

“Steve, they made me talk to one of those people…the psy…uh…I don’t know what kind, but those head people.”

“They did? A psychiatrist?” Steve asked.

“Yeah, and they asked a lot of questions…about what happened…and why…and did I want to go to another place for awhile…” Ghost looked up at Steve. “They won’t make me do that, will they? I just wanna go home is all.”

“Of course not,” Steve said. “They can’t make you do anything, but…did it help…to talk, I mean?”

Ghost nodded. “Yeah, ’cause it was bad, Steve. Things got so mixed up to me, and…and…I was in this dark place where I couldn’t get out, and it didn’t go away until I woke up here.”

“Oh God, Ghost…I’m so sorry…and if I did or said anything to cause it…well, I’m sorry,” Steve said.

“No, it wasn’t…it was my craziness in my head. That’s all…and Steve…I know what they think…and I know you want to ask, but you won’t… I didn’t try to kill myself. I’d never do that…I promise.” His chin quivered, but he kept talking. “But, Steve, it wasn’t an accident either. I hit that mirror real hard, ’cause I didn’t like looking at me. All I see is ugly, bad stuff, and I just couldn’t look any more.” he took a deep sigh. “I forgot it was glass…I was hitting me. Then, I felt my head go crazy,and I fell down. That’s all I know.”

“Oh, thank God, Ghost,” Steve said. “I mean, not that you’re hurt and all, but well, you know…that it wasn’t on purpose.”

Ghost thought a minute. “The psy lady said I should see someone at home…to keep working on feeling better about myself. And, the doctor said I need to take this other medicine now, too. These here ones.” He handed Steve a couple of prescriptions that had been written for him.

Steve looked at them, and nodded. “Then that’s what you’ll do…take these, and go talk to someone at home.”

“I know,” Ghost nodded.

“So when can you get out of here?”

Ghost shrugged. “I don’t know…they didn’t say.”

“Well, do you feel like you should stay, you know, to be stronger for traveling the rest of the way home? We don’t have to be in such a big hurry that it would be bad for you,” Steve said.

“Well, I feel okay to go, really. This place is not fun…they keep poking me and psy-ing me, and Steve, what I really want…I mean need?” He smiled, “I need a good cup of coffee. This here is crap, coffee. Can ya get me a good one and bring it?”

Steve laughed. “Yes, I’m sure I can.”

“The doctor should be back in a little while. That’s what he said.”

“Good. I need to talk to him, and get you outta here,” Steve said, standing up to leave. “I’ll go find coffee for you. Oh, Linda wants to come up to see you…you okay with that?”

“Yeah, send her up,” Ghost said.

“I’ll be back soon,” Steve said, kissing Ghost again.

He left almost dancing down the hallway. His heart was singing now…not lurching.

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Next part coming soon!

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Thanks for visiting! Peace ☮️

© 2019 BS

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This is a work of “fan fiction” based on the novel, “Lost Souls” by Poppy Z. Brite. All credit for the original characters, places, and some backstory mentions, belong to Ms. Brite and her publishing affiliates. Only newly introduced characters, places, and original elements of this story are entirely from my imagination. Character descriptions are a blend of the original book descriptions and my interpretation of them.

All songs included in this work will be solely owned by the original performers/writers and will be credited. Creative license is taken in including them in this story.

No harm is intended toward author, musicians, or people and situations to whom there may be a resemblance.

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The content herein is rated by me as being at the high end of MA (Mature Audience). It includes strong language, violence, sexual themes, including same sex pairingsreligious themes, and fantasy horror.

Throwback Thursday – Luck

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Throwback Thursday – Luck

https://fromcavewalls.wordpress.com/2021/12/30/throwback-thursday-19-superstitions-amulets-and-charms/

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Thanks for the questions, Maggie!

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This week’s prompt is: Superstitions, trinkets, and Charms

TWhat makes you feel lucky? Is it a four leaf clover, a rabbit’s foot, or a lucky penny?

What are you superstitious of? Will you walk under a ladder? What’s your lucky number? What if a black cat crosses your path?

Where did you learn ideas concerning luck? Do you still have superstitions in your adult life?

Since this is the last week of the year I am curious – do you make resolutions, eat specific foods, or have traditions or superstitions to usher in the new year?

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I’m not really superstitious or believe in lucky charms, but it’s fun to think of and play around with. I don’t go out of my way to test good or bad luck, though.

We’ve always ate black-eyed peas on New Year’s Day for good luck. Could be just a southern thing to do, I don’t know.

I’ve broken a mirror before, but can’t say it brought 7 years bad luck. I just had to get another one.

I do knock wood 3 times for good luck, and will cross my fingers from time to time, too.

Black cats are amazing and sweet, and definitely not bad luck.

I won’t walk under a ladder – just common sense.

I like saying a little positive word or two when I see double numbers like 11:11, and I see lots of double numbers, plus the times my girls were born, I see those a lot.

Maybe 23 is my lucky number? My birthday is the 23rd of one month and my wedding is the 23rd of another month.

Here’s a picture of my so called ‘hoo-doo’ bag. I made it of leather with a drawstring closure. Inside I put little items I like: a sort of stained glass looking flower (yellow & silver) for flower power I guess,  a tiny skeleton, a tiny blue alien, a tiny purple phone (was an earring) for communication with spirits, some beads, a brown tiger’s eye button, a lucky penny I’ve had since I was a kid (encased in silver), an arrowhead, and some sea shells I found on a beach, strung  with some beads. They are all fun to look at, but I don’t do anything special with them.

 

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My Hoo-Doo Bag with Charms

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© 2021 BS

Two Souls: Into the Fire # 246

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Two Souls: Into the Fire # 246

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As they drove back to the motel, Linda could tell that Stevie and Mandy were needing a nap. They could hardly keep their eyes open. Steve was staring out the window, lost in a fog of mental pain. She, herself, was exhausted. She couldn’t help the thoughts that came to her.

She gave in to them for a few minutes…What have I gotten us into…uprooting the kids and moving across the country, leaving all we know…going into the unknown and unfamiliar … are Steve and Ghost always in so much drama?…Where are we going to live, where will I find a job… Her mind was in turmoil over it all, going around and around. Then, there was the traveling, and they still had so far to go. Ghost’s health was in jeopardy, too, now, and it was getting to be too much for her. She felt her eyes sting, as tears began to fall. She wiped them away, before Steve could see, at least she hoped he didn’t see her crying. He didn’t need her self-pity on his shoulders, too. Taking a deep, shuddery breath, she said to herself, “I will be strong. I will see this through.”

She pulled the van into the motel parking lot, and switched off the engine. They just sat there a minute. “Mommy, are we home?” Mandy asked, still half-asleep.

“No, sweetie, we’re back at the motel. We’re going in so you and Stevie can take your naps,” she said. Getting out, she helped unbuckle the kids from their car seats. In the room, she helped them get into comfortable sleep clothes, and tucked them in, kissing their foreheads.

“Y’all try to sleep for a little bit,” she said. “Here’s your doll, Mandy. Your uncle Steve and I will be right outside, talking.”

“Okay, Mommy,” Mandy said. Stevie was already asleep.

Steve closed the door, as he and Linda went out. “Okay…I’ve had my pity party, Steve…now, we get busy,” Linda said. “Here’s my thoughts…see what you think,” She cleared her throat, before speaking again. “You go to the office and tell them what’s going on. Pay for the damages to the room…whatever they ask for.” Steve nodded.

“Next, you have to go get your things from the room, and bring them over here.”

“Yeah, I can do that,” Steve said. He headed off to see the motel manager.

Linda checked on the kids, then freshened up a little. Running a brush through her hair, and splashing cold water on her face, helped revive her. Back outside, she met up with Steve, again.

“That’s done,” Steve said. “Now, the room…um…it’s gonna be hard to go in there, Linda…to see…well, you know.”

“I know, but you have to…I have to stay with the kids,” Linda said. “You just try not to think about what happened earlier.”

Steve nodded, as he tried to steel himself for opening the other room’s door. He closed his eyes, as he opened it…immediately the stale air in the room engulfed him. He could see it all happening again. He went in, but left the door open. His eyes were drawn to the bathroom…this is where it happened…oh, God…Ghost’s blood on the floor…shattered glass… A quick look only…there was none of their things in there. He hurried to gather up the few things they’d brought in, from the main room, then left, shutting the door behind him.

He didn’t say a word, as he passed by Linda. He just went into her room and dropped everything on the floor, against the wall. He came back outside…he was breathing hard, and shaking all over. “That’s all,” he said.

“I know that was a hard thing to do, but you did it,” Linda said.  She wanted to hug him, he looked so sad, but she knew if she did, he would probably break down completely.

“Now what?” he asked.

“Well, it’s still a long time until seven o’clock. Maybe we should try to rest, too. I’m going to call Lisa, and tell her what has happened, then I’ll lay down with the kids for awhile,” Linda said. “Maybe you should call Kinsey to let him know what’s going on. Then, come rest on the little bed, okay?”

“Yeah, I better call Kinsey,” Steve said. He took out his phone. They both made their calls.

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Linda dialed her sister’s number. “Hey, Sis, it’s me. We’re stopped a few days, here in Arizona. We were about to get into New Mexico, but Ghost had a bad spell, and is in the hospital.”

“Oh, no…will he be all right?” Lisa asked.

“Yeah, I think so. They’ll release him maybe tomorrow. I’m hanging in there. I’m tired…the kids are good. No complaints from either of them.”

“Good, good, but I can tell by your voice, something’s bothering you,” Lisa said.

Sighing, Linda said, “Just the stress, I guess, Lisa. The uncertainty of it all…second guessing…you know how it is. We’re fine, but we’ll be glad when we get to Missing Mile and can settle down somewhere.”

“I’ll try not to worry then, sister. You keep calling me, though, even if just to say hi, okay?” Lisa said.

“I will,” Linda said. “Love you.”

“Love you, too,” Lisa said. They ended their call. Linda went inside to rest, with the kids.

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Steve had gone over to a little grassy area by the motel pool. Sitting at a picnic table, he made his call to Kinsey.  “Hey, Kinsey,” he began, when the phone was answered.

“Hey, there Steve. Good to hear from you,” Kinsey said. “Where are y’all? How’s it going?” he asked.

“Oh, we’re still in Arizona, but right near the border to New Mexico. We’re gonna be here a little longer than we thought…” Steve trailed off.

“How come?” Kinsey asked.

Steve hesitated a second. “Uh…Kinsey…it’s Ghost…he’s in the hospital here…”

“Oh, no…what happened?”

“He had a…seizure…a bad one, Kinsey…and somehow fell into a mirror and got cut. He had to have a few stitches, but they’ll be okay…it’s…well, they’re keeping him some more, because he was out of it for so long. They’re making sure he’s over it, ya know, got some more meds, and all.” Steve stopped a few seconds, then blurted out, “Shit, Kinsey…I only seen him once this morning, and can’t go back until tonight…and nobody’s telling me anything.” He tried to stifle a sob. “…and he’s not okay, Kinsey…” he said, his voice catching. “He’s just not, and…he said he thinks I hate him. And, the EMTs kept saying it was a suicide attempt, when he broke the mirror…and now I don’t know what to think…or do…or say,” he cried.

“Steve…get ahold of yourself,” Kinsey said. “Did he say anything else…did he say why?”

“No, that’s all, and they made me leave in a hurry. I don’t know what’s going on and I get no information at all. What should I do, Kinsey? I mean, when I see Ghost again. Just ask him straight out? What if he won’t even want to see me no more?”

“I don’t get what’s going on, but it doesn’t sound good, Steve,” Kinsey said. He thought for a minute. “What do you think? Did it look accidental? You weren’t there when it happened?”

“No, I was over in Linda’s room, or car, or whatever…waiting for him to come out. Then he didn’t, so we go in and he’s…Oh, God…laying there on the floor, in the glass, and bleeding, and totally passed out. Then they came and took him…and Kinsey? I’m scared to say it, but there wasn’t no way he fell onto the mirror…it was bolted down.”

“Oh, Jesus, Steve…” Kinsey said. They were silent then, for a minute. “What’s Linda’s take on all this?”

“I don’t know, she didn’t really say. She’s so tired and all, and the kids…she’s taking a nap right now…she just keeps talking about getting back on the road again.”

“Hmm, well, Steve…y’all just go up there tonight and demand some answers from those doctors. And, I guess see if Ghost has come around to normal now. Sounds like just the after-business of the seizure, and the trauma of getting hurt, and medicines…I’m sure he didn’t mean that what he said…there’s no way, you know,” Kinsey said.

“I know, Kinsey, but I’m so worried.”

“I know, Steve, but you have to handle it, you and Linda both. And as soon as possible, get Ghost back home,” Kinsey said. “Let me know how it goes.”

“Okay, I will,” Steve said. They hung up their phones. Steve rubbed his face, and prayed Ghost would be better tonight.

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Next part coming soon!

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Thanks for visiting! Peace ☮️

© 2019 BS

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This is a work of “fan fiction” based on the novel, “Lost Souls” by Poppy Z. Brite. All credit for the original characters, places, and some backstory mentions, belong to Ms. Brite and her publishing affiliates. Only newly introduced characters, places, and original elements of this story are entirely from my imagination. Character descriptions are a blend of the original book descriptions and my interpretation of them.

All songs included in this work will be solely owned by the original performers/writers and will be credited. Creative license is taken in including them in this story.

No harm is intended toward author, musicians, or people and situations to whom there may be a resemblance.

warning      warning      warning      warning

The content herein is rated by me as being at the high end of MA (Mature Audience). It includes strong language, violence, sexual themes, including same sex pairingsreligious themes, and fantasy horror.

Cee’s Midweek Madness Challenge – Letter R

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Cee’s Midweek Madness Challenge – Letter R

https://ceenphotography.com/2021/12/29/cmmc-december-alphabet-starts-with-r/

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  • Restaurant (Marble Slab ice cream shop)
  • Rotunda (looking up in the dome at Austin TX capitol building)
  • Runway (DFW airport)
  • Roadrunner (statue at the mall)
  • Reflection (of computer screen game in my coffee cup)
  • Rustic cabin (at Ranching Heritage Center)
  • A Robin

    

 

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Color Your World – Burnt Orange

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The photos show:

  • Burnt Orange Crayola Crayon
  • My art  – burnt orange in black letters/orange scribbles around
  • Burnt Orange facts – Hue Family – Orange – Year Introduced 1954
  • Lit up Space Heater – gray with orange heated elements
  • Dark burnt orange sunrise
  • Hula Hoops
  • Flash light

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Share Your World

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Share Your World

https://sparksfromacombustiblemind.wordpress.com/2021/12/27/share-your-world-as-the-year-ends-12-27-2021/

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Happy Monday! Thanks for the questions, Melanie! 🙂

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At 12 a.m. on December 31st/Jan 1st, what will you be doing?  (use your own time zone please)

I’ll be sound asleep! We don’t stay up to ring in the New Year. But if I do wake up, I’ll be cursing the people in our neighborhood for popping fire crackers.

Is there a tradition you have for New Year’s Eve?

None at all. We don’t go out, we don’t party, we are boring. But, on New Year’s day I try to have some black-eyed peas, as it’s supposed to be for good luck.

Do you have any hope or reason you find that next year will be better?

I hope things will be better and that the virus will go away, but doubt that will happen.

What’s the biggest personal lesson you learned during 2021?

To stay away from people.

 

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